LiLo’s secret diary reveals she was in love with Heath Ledger

London: A diary which has reportedly been written by Lindsay Lohan reveals that the actress was “in love” with the late actor Heath Ledger at the time of his death in 2008.

According to Star magazine, the journal details the depth of the 25-year-old star’s feelings for the ‘Brokeback Mountain’ actor and hints at a romantic relationship between them.

“Today Heath died,” the Daily Mail quoted the actress as writing on January 22.

“I’m in love with him… He was the love of my life.

“He taught me so much, and he was everything I’ve ever wanted and more. I want to hear him laugh and hold me. I crave his touch and care.

Lohan was even planning to visit Ledger in New York City three days after he passed away, with the intention on introducing him to her mother Dina.

The ‘Mean Girls’ star reportedly broke down in tears in a Los Angeles restaurant when she learned of the ‘Dark Knight’ actor’s death.

“When a person dies the world stops. I’m numb,” she wrote.

“There’s an emptiness. And a desire to feel loved.

“A need to be held in the arms of someone who understands. But what do you do when the one who understands is gone?

The new revelations add weight to rumours that the two were once romantically involved.

A phone conversation in 2008 obtained by Radar Online claimed that Dina told the actress’ father Michael that Lohan was dating Heath when he died.

The troubled star, who has struggled with addictions of her own, was also philosophical in the wake of the actor’s untimely death at 28-years-old.

“It’s like a game of Jenga, and when one piece slips, it all falls apart.

“One pill, one slip and it goes down the slope, crashes and burns and it’s over. Why? I ask myself over and over. Cry is all I can do.

“Heath is a prime example of what this industry can do to someone.

“It craves to see someone fail. It brings enjoyment to us to watch one die. The tragedy and cravings for it can kill. And will,” she added in an entry dated January 31.